I wouldn't call this Family..

It was my Grandad's funeral today. He died on the 1st and today had been long awaited. The good- Beautiful ceremony, over 100 people attended, happy afterparty at a place he loved. The bad- My auntie was on holiday when he died, we all spared her the horror and told her the news when she got off her holiday a few days later. She blames my mum for not telling her, and she's drawn a big line between our two families now. My mum's spent the entire day crying about my Grandad, and now crying that she's lost her sister.. Her best friend.


I've been aggravated about it all day! Her manipulative husband is sucha control-freak, and I can even tell he's been spreading rumours all night just by his actions. I bet he's played a big part in this, seeing as nowadays he's got her so wrapped around his little finger that he could tell her he's been to the moon and she'd throw a party for him.

My mum and auntie were actually best friends, I always remember them together at any family reunion, singing & laughing. I'm actually sad for my mum that this could be the end of that. My mum's tried making up with her, despite doing nothing wrong and she doesn't want to know. Crying, my mum went and hugged her today after the ceremony- my auntie pushed her away and said "This funeral had nothing to do with me.."
It's completely ruined my day this has!


The day was supposed to be about George, my Grandad, and yet all the attention's been focused on my selfish Auntie, who everyone is getting annoyed with but she cannot see it cause she's too far up Kev (Her husbands) backside. 


I'm pretty sure my Grandad's dying wish wasn't that his two daughters lose their friendship and never talk to each other again.


Well done Auntie Debbie, I love you too.. 


I'll admit it's probably a sensitive subject to 'blog' about- But i can't talk to my mum about this, 'cause she cries and tells me to change the subject. I've been stressed all day because of it, and I've barely even thought about the memories with my Grandad cause they've been overshadowed. I've needed to express myself a little to be honest, and that's why I've posted it on here. I want people to realise that family is something to be cherished, not to be thrown away..

Ahh tomorrow..

Really not looking forward to tomorrow...


I've never been to a funeral before, nor witnessed a death of anyone close to me, so tomorrow may be a bit hard hitting.
My Grandad George passed away on 1st October bless him, and I've not thought about it too much really, like whenever I do think about it, I just instantly distract myself from it. Which I guess is a bit like running away from it really, so hopefully tomorrow will be the end of it, and he can RIP :)
The main thing though is the fact that my Mum is so torn up about it. And it's hard to constantly look after her, and keep her happy, so for her sake I hope tomorrow is the end of it all.
The other reason is my Nana obviously, she's now all alone bless her, which makes me sad tbh; but I think it's somehow a bit of a blessing in disguise for her. She's been looking after him for about the last 3 years, and she's fit and healthy- so at least she can now continue with her normal life. That sounds so horrible but it's actually not. My grandad has been waiting for this for a while, so at least he's at peace. And hopefully after tomorrow, my family will be as well:)


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I quite like college..

TBF, I always sort of complain to myself whenever it's a 'school day', but it's not even that bad?

I mean the work side of it for a start off may seem a bit stressful or irritating, but it's something to do and if you do it well you're left with sucha great feeling! Pride jannoe! ;)

And then theres all the other aspects of college- I mean you get to see about a thousand people you know at once, so it's already the best place to meet new friends etc.
You get to do what you want really, it's like a second home. During lessons they tell you the task, you get on with it like a good little soldier, and then we have about 1hour lunch to do whatever we want. Before we know it it's over..

When I look back on the college day, I've always enjoyed it. You get a bit of coursework here and there, but that's life! I don't see the big fuss with it all to be honest. It's just a big laugh with friends, with a bit of added work!

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Why is society such a hard place to fit into?

Society is what we are all a part of, and yet for a lot of us, it is very hard to become a part of.. What's the deal with that?
Basically; we're all different, which is a good thing! But why is it that if there is any differences in beliefs, we can't get along?


What annoys me is that people label other people, and therefore decide to not get along with them, despite how they may be. I'm sure given the right chance, anyone can get on with pretty much anyone, so why do some people insist on being so stuck up?


There's always that group of people who think they're much better than everyone else, and evidently they're not. But everyone follows the crowd, and they always end up the most socially accepted people... Why? They do nothing but judge people, and do their best to wreck any means of happiness to those different.


It's a corny thing to say, but why can't we all just get along? Why are we all limited to little groups of friends...


We need some more happiness in this world TBH!


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